I'm at that point again

I'm feeling alone and I'm feeling like I don't belong where I am. I know I am meant to be with Gregg, but I'm doubting that I will succeed at Long Beach. I don't really talk about this cause everyone just tells me "you'll do fine" or "God's will." That's not what I want to hear. I know God's will be done, but sometimes I need real advice like anecdotes and such to really show me I'm ok.
This semester has been interesting. I only had 3 classes (which might not sound like much but this is the most stressful semester I've had). The classes aren't evenly spread. I had an 8 week course which I thought would be the headache but ended up being the easiest class. It was so interesting and really opened my eyes to a lot of things. The teacher was incredible and almost got me to switch to special ed (almost). then I had phonology seminar. The teacher is new so shes very lax making it pretty easy. Also, most of it is review too making it nice. Then there's research. The dreaded research. I posted about the paper for that class. Part 1: 18 page literature review. I got an 80%. Sounds respectable except that I misread the grade as 80/82 but it ended up being 66/80. and the average grade is 73/82 so I got one of the lowest scores in the class. On top of that, my first grade on the midterm for this class I got a C when everyone else got As. I feel like she plays favorites to those that went to undergrad here. I don't know what to do. So Part 2: 15 page methods paper is due Dec 8th. I need to do well on this and I don't know how to fix it. She spends all her time with the long beach alums for her office hours. I also have NOBODY to go to at Long Beach for help and advice. Makes me REALLY miss CSUN. I had so many people to talk to there. Here there is nobody and when I do get to talk to them they don't really have time to listen to me.
I'm also freaking out about next semester. I am signed up to take two undergrad classes which deals with tests and memorizing the minute details of the anatomy of Nerology and swallowing. Then I have a seminar in autism which i"m excited for but I know it will be a lot of work. Then I have my first clinic in phonology. I'm already so stressed out about how little time I have with Gregg, but as many of you know, my first clinic at CSUN did not go well. And even though that fault weighed heavily on my supervisor that offered zero help, I still know I did not do that well. And what if I don't have what it takes. What if I can't come up with activities to help these children learn? What if they don't improve? What if I make it all the way through grad school and then get to my CFY and don't know what i'm doing? I am missing my friend Jen so much. She was my lifeline at CSUN but she has graduated and moved back to SLO lucky duck. I want a Jen at this school. Someone to be able to talk to. I have a few girls I talk to but they're busy with their own stuff and we're still getting to know each other. I'm just feeling so lost right now and alone. After moving to Long Beach, I knew it would happen but I seriously only hear from 3 people from CSUN on a semi-regular basis. One in particular has been amazing. I'm so glad I have her. I am talking to more people down here than I did in CSUN but I haven't gotten to that "friend" level with anyone and I hate sounding needy like "ooh can we hang out tonight."
So after all that rambling, please pray for me. I'm feeling like any minute now my bad is jsut gonna shatter into a million pieces and I don't think anyone will be able to put me back together. I hate complaining because I have friends that are going through things far worse than me, but I just had to get it all out. Thanks for listening for those who made it this far