Venting again, but a happier ending

So i've been really in a depressed funk...continued from last time but with a few new things to think about. Just got news that some very dear family friends of Gregg's may be getting a divorce. i know this couple as this couple..never apart. It just terrifies me how much divorce is in the world and for the silliest reasons. This couple is fighting over where to live- in a condo or on a ranch..within the same city amongst other things. So sad. Then I have my best friend. I was sitting in the shower jsut thinking today. I often let my mind wander in there cause then the tears just get swept away with the water. Today it hit me how much I love my best friends. so much changes but my absolutely unconditional love for her never changes. It's been so hard living so far away from her unable to just grab lunch just to hang out. And then she had her baby. the thing that hit me today is my adoration for this baby. You really don't expect to love a baby so much when it's not yours. It hurts to be away from her and her family and I don't know how to get passed it. With that comes the fact that not only do I not get to be there but a good friend of theirs is having a baby and moving back to the coast. Those boys are only gonna be a few months apart. This was our dream-to raise our kids together and now it's not me. This other girl is amazing and she's gonna be an amazing mom but it just isn't fair that it's not me. I pray to the Lord to help me accept His will for me but it just keeps getting harder and harder. I think he just keeps testing me to see how much faith I truly have in Him and I'm not doing so well. I praise the Lord that my friend and I have overcome so much over our technically 26 years of friendship. And who can honestly say that you have known your best friend for 26 years. I'm so lucky to have that! Just how do you get out of a slump when you can't change the things that are happening and when you really are truly happy with your life. I'm focusing on these sad things and not focusing on the great things. I have a husband that cares for me, I'm still able to go to SLO several times a month, there is light at the end of the tunnel for school, we have the means to take trips such as our OR trip to see my dear sister and to NY to celebrate gregg and my 5th anniversary, my parents now only live a half hour away, I have so many caring people in my life that respond immediately when I need prayer, I've met so many of my favorite actors and actresses, and I have a God that blesses me with all of this and who loves me dearly...wow, i truly feel so much better after writing this. alright, maybe i need to vent about the good things in life. Good grief!!!